05/16/06 8:11AM

I'm telling you... some times I really think i'm going out of my head... as you read this you think, doesn't she mean out of her mind? No, strangely enough I mean out of my head. I dunno if that means my brain is about to explode or what... But...

I'm not even sure what to think these days. The other night i'm in bed, just laying there... and I think, "Why do people even get married?" Bear with me.. if we are here to do God's work and all we need to do to sustain ourselves is depend on God, then why get married? What could marriage possibly hold other than desires of the flesh and intimacy with a person that you can't give your all to because you have to save that for God. I'm being all together serious by saying this... I just don't get it.

There are other things I don't get, but I need to get outta here and get happy so that I can do well at my job interview.

It's a financial company, executive something trainee is the position... offers 30-60,000 a year. I'm excited. A little nervous, but mostly anticipating what its all about.

Anyhoo, sorry for the freakish, sounding like I hate marriage bit.. i'm just interested to know what the deal is.